Wow! I thought this was something I'd be keeping up on....

So many things have been happening since my last post. Now that I'm 18 weeks and one day pregnant with our second baby, life has been a little different, but in a wonderful way.

I've been doing so much reflecting and enjoying this time in our lives. I feel so differently than I did with June. My emotions are running wild and I feel such a greater connection to God than I ever have. I think it's different because there is less that is unknown and I have a better understanding of what my body is going through. My love for my family has multiplied. God's love for me has never been more real.

All the things I've known about Jesus Christ and God's love and desire to give us eternal life have always been a part of my life, but were never so overwhelming and real as they are now. Having children has changed my perspective in a huge way. I can't imagine sending my child, even to save humanity, only to endure unimaginable pain and ridicule as Jesus Christ did. That just breaks my heart, and yet our Savior did that for us. For my baby. For my daughter. The only thing we have to do is accept Him and believe? Then follow His word? It's amazing. I feel so incredibly blessed that we have found a church where I feel the number one goal is to learn and do God's work. This time in my life, it doesn't feel like work. Maybe that's because I'm not resisting. The best part is that June has been embraced and loves to go to Sunday school. The kids are so well behaved and you can feel the warmth from the women volunteering. With all the chaos we have going on, this has been the greatest blessing I could ever ask for.

Life goes on and although I feel like there are many obstacles we are facing right now, I'm glad to be where we are. I know that every obstacle is an opportunity. I just have to stay focused. I'm so excited to find out the gender of our little one. June keeps asking for a sister and Dustin would love a girl too. When you already have a child I think it's difficult to see yourself raising one of the opposite sex. We would be happy with either. I can't picture myself with a boy, but man would that be fun! :)

I'll continue updating this. I love writing and just needed to get back into the routine of it.